knee jerk reaction

the question was simple. what are you not willing to trust God with? seriously, should be easy right? but my brain and heart quite frankly just doesn't go there yet.. i'm sure i'll get around answering that all important simple question some time, but for now, i have to stop and really think about the word trust.

i won't bore you with the 24 definitions that i just looked up.  i want you instead to pretend you can't read, and you can't talk, you can't bathe yourself, you can't feed yourself, you can't even use the bathroom yourself. you have to trust someone else to help you. to read to you. to feed you. to clean you. to figure out what your needs are. you have nothing.  kind of like a newborn baby.

as a newborn baby, trust isn't even a word that you know. you cry because your hungry, and then someone feeds you. you stink, so someone changes you. it's not a matter of thinking that you need to trust. it's a reaction. something that you just do, because you have no other choice.

ok, open your eyes and stop pretending. You are actually an adult. you smell so you have to shower,  you need food so you run to the store, you have to have a job cuz you have bills and other responsibilities that you just didn't ask for that you need to perform, there is no room for trusting anyone but yourself. it's easier, you have gifts and abilities that you can rely on, and you do just fine. or do you?

have you even stopped to think about what the creator of the universe longs to give you? i can tell you simply, it's really good stuff,  but there is one catch. He wants you to trust Him with everything. to become like a newborn and not even know you have a choice.

moving from trusting God as a choice to a knee jerk reaction is a constant heart battle, but it's a battle totally worth fighting.

 He called a little child to him, and placed the child among them.

 And he said: “Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children,

 you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.  Matthew 18:2

God loves you SO stinking much that He CAN be trusted with 100% of your needs, really!! i'm looking forward to telling you about my weekend on monday.. fun stuff planned!! whoop! happyday to you!