Saturday, July 23, 2011

a walk i don't like.

 She has cancer. Stage four. Chemo started yesterday. 

She is my sister in law. Oldest of four. Mother of two adorable spirited little girls.
 Child of God. 

We came home from taking the rock star world changer south to camp.  We had someone watching them, we weren't worried at all. They'd be fine.  They weren't.  
My theory?  Heat made them slow, scavengers scavenged.  

She scurries down the path her and her friends usta walk every morning. I watch. She walks alone, and I cry for the first time.  A moment when a single life needs to walk a walk they didn't chose. 
A journey, although surrounded by lots of friends and family, that must be walked alone.  
I hate cancer. I hate watching life fight for life.  

 Moment by moment I force my brain on the thought that God has all of this. All of it. 

The loss of 6 of my ladies.
The cancer of my sister in law.
The future for her babies.

focusing on the things above makes it a bit easier... but I still don't have to like it.  

"Set your mind on things that are above,
 not on things that are on earth." 
 Colossians 3:2 


rachel@thecupcakesprinklesinlife said...

While it is one of the hardest things to go through with a friend/family member, your love and support during the process will mean soo very much.

My Mother in law has just completed her tour of chemo/radiation and is in the phase of waiting for good reports to start rolling in. {She had serious form of Breast Cancer}

Hang in there. Wrap her up in love.
Pray. Listen.
Thinking of you...

kelly said...

thanks rachel. praying you have heard good reports!