for those who want to know....

sorry to have left ya hanging.... if your still there... sometimes i never know who reads this.. i have fears that nobody is and it's just a self prescribed therepy session...

well, the first day of "HAPPY DAY!" went very well. i'm hoping to make it a weekly thing. not only is is WAY more fun than i have ever imagined.. it's also helping with the finances and that makes the lead singer one happy man...

Happy Day! is a traveling program that gives kids in daycares a chance to have a one hour a week break! We laid out our story blankets... learned a tad bit about each other, and sang and danced to music, then listened to a few stories. then it was over to the art blanket (a very large plastic tablecloth) where we made a suncatcher thingy. this all happenes in the driveway of the daycare.. i'm kinda praying for a bus so that i can continue happy day! in the winter months....can you just imagine me rolling up to home daycares.. honking the horn, and inviting the kids on the bus for an hour of activities!.. oh soooo much fun!

someday i'll show ya in pictures exactly what we are doing.. but i was a tad bit busy with kids to even think abuot taking any!

may God be glorified in all your HAPPYDAYS!

stay tuned.

the CPU in my brain has been on hyper drive lately. it's not that i want it to be, but i need it to be. i get to share my gifts with 2 daycares this week. we will be sharing stories and creating this really cool project that i found on a blog. i'm excited for many reasons however, i'm more nervous than excited right now. so stay tuned i have a zillion things to accomplish before wednesday... and blogging is not one of them.

possibilities..

so my middle world changer wakes up this morning and says to me..

"mom can we go to the fabric store today?"

um... let me think about that..

SURE!

a middle after my own heart....

(in anticipation of painting her room i told her she needed to finish her own quilt for her bed.. she's almost done with the squares, and doing a really really great job... so we will go to the fabric store and get more fabric for her.. and possibly fabric for myself, i am thinking i will be needing a new purse for this weekend.... or an apron.. or something.. ahhh the possibilities!

catch up thoughts.

today i dropped off the chickens that survived the cats and other animals that ate the rest of their friends. it's kinds ironic that the reward for staying alive is death and then dinner, but i guess thats the way of the farmer.

this past week we had a celebration of a century. my dads farm has been in the family for 100 years this year and my dad threw a HUGE three day party. sooo much fun. my world changers had all the fun they could muster up all week in the prep and the take down. my hope is that they remember it forever. family is so important and worth every ounce it takes to celebrate something big or small.

it's HER day!!

birthdays are a pretty normal thing that you take for granted, unless you had a life threatening disease. then you might tend to celebrate them a tad bit more. so that's why i'm up at the crack of dawn trying to make a gluten free cake. i say trying cuz i ran out of flour by 1/2 cup.

so i'll go running first. wait till the rest of the world wakes up and then hunt some down.

after all you only turn 6 once in your life, and the best aunties know this...

breathless.

so for the past few months i have hauling my butt out of my bed at the crack of dawn and running, or really i jog to you, but it's running to me.

on my path there are three hills.

the first is big.

the second sorta bigger.

the third... is HUGE.

that hill is practically minutes from my imaginary finish line.

i hate that hill. kills my time every day. i think i'm almost done, and then comes that darn hill.

no wonder paul told us that the life of a believer is like a race. running a race up a hill is hard.

but that view from the top is so worth it, even if your breathless when you finish.

i wanna finish my race breathless.

flippant heart.

well, it's been a year and instead of my short posts.. i thought i'd give you the 411 on my heart and be completely honest with you about my thoughts and feelings on the matter. don't worry it's a cause for celebration.. and it's a little longer!

last year on this date i was fired from one of my dream jobs as a children's ministry director at a church i had been attending for 10 years. all 10 of those years i was deep in ministry there, and the last (almost) 5 years i was in a paid position. thats 10 years of wearing the "help out in the nursery" sticker on my forehead. which believe it or not doesn't help in the making and keeping friends department.

i loved my job, and if you ask anyone who worked directly with me on a daily basis, i was good at it, and it God was blessing our ministry together in soooo many ways.

until, january (might have been later) of 08. this is when my salary was cut almost half because i wasn't "doing summer programming".. and the church needed to cut back on expenses. that was hard, but i delt with it. the fusion team however, decided on their own that they should continue with ministry (even after serving an every sunday in the school year including holidays 9 months). So that meant that i needed to run a preschool program, and after many prayerful nights it was clear to me that i was the one to run that ministry for the summer. so, salary cut, i chose to continue to do ministry the way God wanted me to.. more of it.

but that apparently wasn't enough.

i was fired on july 1, 2008.

reasons being. i was insubordinate and flippant. (which i totally am.)

i wasn't running a summer program (which i totally was.)

i wasn't getting enough leaders to lead key positions.

i was forced to "not talk" for about 3 months, (sucked a ton of suckers...)

and i was not to serve in children's ministry again. (which hurt the most)

they sent a letter to the congregation. informing them of the change. just so "no one thinks kelly did anything immoral."

after i was fired, they got 4 ladies to do my job. which makes me smile.. :)

then they hired 2 of those ladies to do exactly what i was doing.. and ministry has never been better there at that church. they do a great job, i'm certain of that.

so i lost my job, i can survive that.

but what i wasn't so sure i could survive was the loss of practically everything.

friends especially. relationships with the kids, and parents. and my ministry.(this still hurts tremendously.)

i dove into the Word and God has been confirming ever since that i will have peace at that church. (my lead singer is still neck deep in ministry- so technically it's still our church)

so a year later.. i can honestly say i'm happier, stress free, and learning and loving the Word of God on a deeper level then i would have ever thought. yah it could have gone down a WHOLE lot different. Churches are full of sinful people, me included. i own my part.

but i'm happy i got to serve the church in the capacity i did for so long. it was a huge blessing in my life. and i wouldn't have it changed at all. it has helped shaped me and mold me for God's purposes, and He is the only person i'm subordinate to..

and that is enough of that.....