There is just so much I want to write to you today. So many struggles and personal hang ups and issues that I needed to overcome to get to this point. Voices in my head that whisper lies. "You are not good enough, you have too many past sins to be used, you Kelly are just a housewife from Iowa." Voices I have had to stomp on daily until they just give up.. and Satan tries another tactic. Distraction is his current favorite.. always something when your goal is to pour life into thirsty souls with Words and images... a battle I am called to fight.
I just sold my 100th canvas, and I'm in awe... no I'm in tears. I want to run quick to heaven hug Jesus and blow God a kiss then come back to my studio to create some more.
The battle of your mind is important. It's what you think about, what you gaze on that ultimately dictates who you are and who you are becoming. It's this battle for your thoughts that God has called me to fight. A war against the enemy for your soul. A war that you fight daily, and I pray for you. I pray that you stand strong and gaze on Truth. This is why I must create. This battle, this war is FAR to important to just sit and hope. We must actively train our thoughts to think on Him. He who saves.
Satan is right, I can do nothing on my own. Neither can you.
God is full of so much grace and mercy for us. Grace that I enter into every time I pick up a brush. It's because of HIM that 100 canvases sold... He really does give good gifts.... to us all.
If you have purchased a canvas. Thank you. If you have shared my page. Thank you. If you have given me the gift of words. Thank you. If you have given time in prayer. Thank you. If you gave me a huge box of canvases.. or just one.... Thank you. There is nothing on this earth that I'd rather be doing, and it's because of you that I get to.
Is this gig forever? who knows.. but I sure hope it's not over yet....